Boys...

I really don't like life right now.
I also don't know why I'm writing here.

I've come to the realization today that some people can suddenly be super judgmental. Don't get me wrong, I judge people. But I don't judge my friends...at least not harshly. I'd never be like "wow I can't believe you do that. That's so stupid" I mean, yeah if a friend told me they killed kittens and danced with their dead bodies, I'd totally say that was fucked up, but that's totally different.

In other news, I've been feeling really lonely. For a while the whole being single thing was great but now love songs are starting to make me sad. I think I just have low self esteem and I'm hoping that finding a relationship with someone who genuinely liked me would make me feel better. It would, actually. But that's a bad reason to be in a relationship. I'd also like the companionship though. Knowing there's someone out there that feels the same about me as I do about them, always knowing you can go to them if you're upset...that kinda shit.

All the guys that like me are so obvious about it though. It's annoying. They'll say how they love being a giving boyfriend and all this weird crap. They're tools.

Oh well...

I figure eventually I'll stumble on someone who likes me for me...and who I actually like back lol.